Searching My Inventory

I would have to admit that make a fearless and moral inventory scares the heck out of me. The way I look at it is this…..Everyone and their brother has been taking my own inventory for ages. I have not been assertive enough to say STOP IT. I just let them do it. It feels like I have lost control of all my bodily functions. Trust me I have been there and done that countless of times. I felt embarrassed and ashamed. It happened last month in a hospital setting. My anxiety was totally out of control and I was experiencing a drug reaction. If I say down and really took a good look at my life, I would want to run away. But I can’t. My life follows me wherever I go like a shadow. I cannot hide from my life. I have to learn to deal with it….flaws and all. My latest kick is…..I feel that no one understands me…….WOW!!!!!! Join the club you might say. Yup I belong to a secret club that is full of steps to follow. 12 steps to be exact. These twelve steps are the basis for recovery from all sorts of habits, hurts and hangups. I feel like I need to start all over from Step 1 We admitted we were powerless over our addiction – that our lives had become unmanageable. Nobody like to admit that they may have a problem or difficulty. That is where denial comes in. Yes, denial is part of my inventory of negativity. Taking stock in my inventory is scary. What if I find a bad apple? It is simple as apple pie. I can either keep it and let it rot my soul or I can let it go. I choose to let go of all the things in my life that are making me feel inadequate, fearful, discouraged etc. etc,

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