Try, Try, Try Again

Sometimes no matter how hard I try things just don’t go my way. I have no control over certain people, places, or things. I only have control over my own life. But lately my life has been in a downward spiral. My latest crisis is two concurrent health issues. The first one is having a reaction to a current medication I am taking. I have overall swelling in both my legs. I find it difficult to walk. The next issue relates to pain in my cervical spine. That is the more serious issue. Tomorrow I will be receiving an epidural steroid injection in my neck. It scares me to death, Try as I might…..I cannot seem to control my fear. Fear is False Expectations Appearing Real. I have to stop the crazy stinking thinking. I have to stop expecting bad outcomes of getting the procedure. It is totally out of my hands. I totally trust and have faith in the Dr. I worked with the Dr. when I was a Labor and Delivery Nurse. I just don’t trust myself. I will be awake for the procedure and it will be necessary to have a constant view of my spine by xray. I have to stop worrying. The what if’s are bothersome. I won’t be able to do normal activities for a few days. So I will somehow have to find a different way to manage my boredom. I have to not focus on what I really want to do…..gamble. It is not going to b4 easy. The biggest gamble is about to happen tomorrow when I get the risky procedure done. I pray that it works. Tonight I will let go and let God put my mind at ease.

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