It has been quite awhile since I have posted anything with good reason. These past few months have been filled with worry, hurt, bitterness, and anger. You name it and I have felt it. Today I feel scared at the outcome of pending surgery in a few short hours. I am scared of the big C. But I know that God is in control. I have never had control. My illness is out of my hands. Only God knows. All I know is ASAP= Always Say A Prayer. I recently posted a prayer request on a prayer group and only 3 people out of over 200 responded. I felt abandoned with such lack of response. Yet total stangers I met have outnumbered those 3 individuals. I realize now that God only matters. He is the ultimate healer. He knows his plans for all of us. Those still active in addiction and those of us in recovery. May 2019 bring you peace and restoration. May God be with you on your journey of recovery. Recovery means something different for me now. Pray for me and always remember ASAP.