You have to want it more than anything. You cannot want it for your friends or family. You have to want recovery for yourself. Recovery will give you a freedom unlike any other when all seems lost. There is a way to heal yourself. Surrendering to the fact that you cannot do this by yourself. Twelve step programs and Celebrate recovery will lead you to freedom from addiction. Every day is a struggle. I struggle with anger issues. I raise my blood pressure unnecessarily. I get so mad that I seek relief. My recovery means more to me the older I get. I realize that I have to take the plunge and change my ways. Last month after graduation, I realized I have to keep on moving on. I applied for a Master’s Degree program. In a few short weeks I will find out if I will make it in a program with only thirty spots. Recovery is an ongoing process. A process that will take time and effort. Never give up your dreams of recovery.