What Would You Do?

Suicide is not rich. Suicide is not famous. Suicide does not discriminate. It happens. Leaving loved ones behind to grieve and wonder why. Every day lives are lost to suicide. Know the warning signs.The following is from the website:


These signs may mean that someone is at risk for suicide. Risk is greater if the behavior is new, or has increased, and if it seems related to a painful event, loss, or change:

  • Talking about wanting to die or kill oneself
  • Looking for a way to kill oneself
  • Talking about feeling hopeless or having no reason to live
  • Talking about feeling trapped or being in unbearable pain
  • Talking about being a burden to others
  • Increasing the use of alcohol or drugs
  • Acting anxious or agitated; behaving recklessly
  • Sleeping too little or too much
  • Withdrawing or feeling isolated
  • Showing rage or talking about seeking revenge
  • Displaying extreme mood swings

     What would you do if you knew someone who felt this way? Addiction can play havoc on the mind. Addiction can take you to the the point of no return. Never say to yourself……”It’s not my problem.” Everyone has problems that go unseen or noticed. Take the time to understand the signs and symptoms of suicide. You just might save a life.


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Recovery Takes Patience

I have been recovering from an accident for the past 9 months. I have been told that I have at least 9 more months to recover. Thank God for the program. Recovery takes patience and time. I have been to my rock bottom. I had an incident happen in which I was kicked out of my Bachelor’s program for interacting  AKA talking with high school students. It was a hard hit. I immediately went into panic mode. What am I going to do now? I am still waiting patiently. Recovery from life’s hurts, habits, and hangups takes time. But as human beings, we want it and we want it now. Recovery has taught me to slow down and interact with positive like minded people. No matter where you are in your journey of recovery always remember be patient.


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Honestly: Getting Real About Jesus and Our Messy Lives

The following is a book review for the book Honestly:Getting Real About Jesus and Our Messy Lives by Daniel Fusco. This book gives the reader a real hope that although our lives may be messy…..Jesus can honestly change our lives. The book is easy to read and truly encouraging that the reader can find the grace and strength to get out of their life’s messes. The book provides inspiring real life experiences that can be truly inspiring. I recommend this book as a great summer read to become inspired to get out of our messy lives.

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Matthew 16:24-26

Matthew 16:24-16 Then Jesus said to his disciples, “If any of you wants to be my followers, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross,and follow me.” If you try to hang on to your old life, you will lose it. But if you give up your addictive ways, a whole new world opens up. Pick up your cross of recovery. Walk the walk of finding new hope in a recovery program. You must turn from your selfish ways. Something that I aim for every day. After all, we are only human. Take up your addiction, your burdens, your disappointments and throw it away. Don’t look back on the things of the past. Look forward to a future. One that has the potential of life altering recovery. Do not be afraid of the challenges of letting go of addiction. Be afraid of what you are missing by not being in recovery. The hardest step is the first step. There is hope in starting over. 

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Cast Your Worries Aside

Unnecessary worry…..Sometimes in life we are faced with what seems to be insurmountable difficulties. It is during those times that we need to remind ourselves that God is in control. Try as we might it just can’t be overcome without God. God is our strength. His words are powerful. Just think with the words…..Let there be light……He created light. I am in awe over the awesomeness of God’s power. While I may be powerless over my life, God has the power to change my destiny. After all,my life is God’s will and God will lead me to my destiny. I am coming to realize that my recovery is dependent on have positive thoughts. I have so many worries on my mind. College and an upcoming surgery are flooding me with worry. I have to stay focused on the task at hand……….Recovering from life’s hurts so that I can  be a better person and roll with the changes.


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Everything Changed

In the blink of an eye…….My life changed today. Everyone around me had gotten the “ticket” to be interviewed for the Master’s Program. I received nothing. I felt relief. I can move on to the next step…….Letting go of the disappointment of letting my family down. There will be no pity party only a graduation party in May. August will find me in a new college program that will be much better for me. Everything does change when we are willing to let go and Let God handle life’s difficult moments. When the addict accepts that they have an addiction, recovery can start. It takes courage to change old habits into new ones. It takes wisdom to know the difference between addiction and recovery. Today I did not seek comfort in my former addiction. For that I am eternally grateful to my higher power.

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Seeing Beyond Addiction

Picture what looking beyond addiction looks like. Most addicts cannot do that because they are too far into their addiction. Addiction is an easy way out of life’s responsibilities……A bad choice of a coping mechanism. When all else fails, rock bottom happens. The lowest point being death. What does the death of an addict look like in recovery? Total surrender. Letting go of the crutch that keeps a crippled addict totally unable to function. Is the addictive choice really a fix? The wound of addiction is too big. There is only one choice ……..To make a 12 step meeting or attend  a Celebrate Recovery meeting along with counseling. There is an epidemic out there. It’s real. I had an elderly woman say “ Don’t judge me.” She uses Oxycodone for pain management. I had to be totally honest and say “I don’t judge you.” I have no right to. But there came a point where she showed me how she got her drugs for cheap. That’s where I drew the line……I thought for this old suffering woman there has to be freedom from pain. For me I choose to live one day at a time.

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